I could quote Angel and JT word for word. That fantasy still comes back to try to make me believe it was real. I think about the XABF getting married next month and for a second it bothers me. But then I remind myself of the reality - much like yours. I have to force myself to remember the true side of him - the side that threatened to call the cops on me when I wanted to talk with him about his addictions. I remember how I told him I would not stand for his cruel behavior in public, for the emotional abuse. I remember that it was ME who told him NO I would not marry HIM. How can a person have sour grapes when it's something I didn't WANT?! It's ridiculous!
I cannot help that the feelings come. But I can help how long they stay around. And I am DETERMINED they'll be gone as fast as they came.