my conundrum
Here's my problem, though I've already accepted the solution and am at this point just bitter and bitching:
I'm not an alcoholic. Don't get me wrong my drinking will no doubt trend towards alcoholism over time, but at this point, the reason I'm leaving the sauce is the (nearly unavoidable) progression from drinking to cocaine. If I'm drinking, I let my guard down, and then I make stupid decisions. So, for now at least, I need to give it all up, since the two have become like one of those annoying couples that are ALWAYS together.
How do I distract myself for the initial period of cleanliness? I'm quite functional while wasted so throwing myself into school or work doesn't help. I've considered having "Smarten the f**k up" tattooed onto my right hand (my wallet hand) but that seems extreme.