My experience has been that the more I resisted going to meetings the more I needed to be there. One of my character defect is bull headedness. I don't handle people telling me what to do very well. I tend to bow up and become determined that they will not win. That is why when I am resistant to meetings I make myself go. I need all the help I can get to change the negative aspects of who I am. I not only want to stay sober but in the process I want to become a better person.