Hi Den13,
Just a quick hello!
After what I put my wife through the trust level is virtually non existent. I never wanted to hurt her but that's alcohol and that's the past - I can't change either. I have to "do whatever it takes" to stop drinking and prove that I can do it (promises don't work anymore) - for my wife, my kids, myself. I don't know how long this will take. You have 4 months of abstinence which is a great accomplishment. I really know how tough that is. Best wishes.