Thanks everyone for your kind words. I really do appreciate it.
Someone mentioned that you learn how to take care od yourself and detach from the A, but what do you really mean by detachment? I mean I don't ...I mean I know right now I need to work on myself and bad qualities I have, but I look at the first step and think well I do have some power, I leave the A, but that's not easy because he doesn't want to leave and gives me hell for it. Then you say detachment, now why would I want to be with someone if I am gonna be detached from them???? Dettached in what way do you mean???
Oh boy i have a lot of work a head of me right? I am very stubborn and I know that's not good, I also have some control issues, but he, the A get me sooo pissed off. And also I get angry at myself for staying with him.