Hi,
my morning time here! well...9.50am.
I am improving. The worst of my anticipatory anx inducing events is over.
I had the family for dinner yesterday and my father in law got expectedly drunk and abusive with my sis in law who was uncharacteristically calm, he cussed and swore frequently in front of my children, he fell asleep in the bathroom then fell in the bath...getting abusive with me and hubby for lifting him out.
My sis in law kept on trying to get me in a confidential natter to ask me 'what is REALLY wrong with you?' (in laws don't know the extent of my illness....they think I am just a bit work stressed) She professes that she is not letting the matter drop.
So.......that is over, done. I don't have to worry about that any more until 2009.
While the morning dreads are still here, they are nowhere near as bad as they have been. The thoughts of self harm are still there but they feel more like thoughts than plans now.
Thank you so much for being here for me when I was in such a state.:ghug2
I have a psychiatric nurse coming to see me in a couple of days to talk over all these feelings and help me maybe make plans for when I hit crises points like this.
Hippy