I am aware of my position as an ACOH and have been to therapy at school, however they don't have a large budget so it's not that often. I would normally have to pay--which is hard to do with no med insurance on an EMT salary) but after the councilor heard what was going on she said she'd help me as long as necessary. my parents know because I had to borrow money for medical bills. they are supportive but preoccupied with their own respective tragedies of the last year. I will look into al-anon when I get back, but school's in a tiny farmtown, so we will see..
and thanks for the support. I don't consider myself codependent, I think in this case I was blinded by lust. XABF was once going to do a photoshoot for a famous sunglasses company, but he got in a barfight the night before in which a bottle was smashed over his head and he had to go to the hospital and get stitches in his face. Maybe I shouldve paid more attention to the second part of the story than the first.