Welcome to SR. I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you must be experiencing right now.
Please feel free to also post in our alcoholism section as I am sure you will find support and possibly others with similiar experiences there. Here is a link to those areas.
Women in recovery:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/women-recovery/
Alcoholism:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/alcoholism/
Also here is a link to our grief and loss forum;
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/grief-loss/