Thanks for your replies. My mum came and now she is gone. Hubby is home. I suppose I am 'safe' but why do I feel so resentful of it? Earlier today, my mum and I just walked to the local shops and all the way there, I planned my exit. I had it all so clear in my mind, the wording of the letter and everything. Nothing is touching me, it just goes straight through me like I am an emotional straw. All I can think about is me me me.
Jenna sunshine, your advice is great but I feel I don't deserve it as I am not acting upon it.
I just can't see me getting through this holiday period. I am supposed to be entertaining visitors in a couple of days which feels mammoth and huge and I don't know how I can manage but I can't manage to cancel either. I know I am like a broken down record, I am sorry. I am also supposed to be going back to work in 9 days. Everything is just too big and too difficult to contemplate.
hippy