Originally Posted by
Maria 5000 
Hey Rob, I can totally relate to where you are. The school of been there done that. I am also back to day one. It is soooo easy to fall, and the roller coaster never seems to stop. I am so, so, sick of being so sick..... Geez, I am 50, you would think I would know better by now? We are back to day one but haven't given up. That is the important part. hang in there and I'll do the same... :-)
The reason you are back to day one is because you havent given up.
There is a solution. Almost none of us liked the self-searching, the leveling of our pride, the confession of shortcomings which the process requires for its successful consummation. But we saw that it really worked in others, and we had come to believe in the hopelessness and futility of life as we had been living it. When, therefore, we were approached by those in whom the problem had been solved, there was nothing left for us but to pick up the simple kit of spiritual tools laid at out feet.
Staying sober today is as easy as loging on to SR but I had to pick up those tools that we all talk about.