"It round and round in my head and narly drove me crazy
and almost into an obsession trying to figure it out.
I guess the relationship is not important to her
or I'm not important to her anymore...I'm all used up.
Yet, i struggle to let go and she's off in la laa land somewhere.
Nope she dosn't give me a second thought..even if she did
I'm on the bottom of her food change and her thoughts of me
would be too inconvinent for her..especially now."
Satit, you're reading my mind again!! OMG, the Holidays brought this kind of thinking out in me and it about drove me nutty. My friend in Miami had to "fuss at me" to get me off that track. I don't know how they can change in a moment, but they do. What happened to "Us?", what happened to "love and miss you with all my heart?", why is another woman making wedding plans? Sheesh, remember dummy (me), I was the one who refused to marry him? I'm all twisted up in my head sometimes.
Part of the reason is because a lot of us have been treated to the "love 'em and leave 'em" treatment. One day you're beloved, the next day you're yesterday's trash. Maybe we're haunted by it because we would NEVER treat someone like that - it's an alien concept to us. I don't know. But I do know I have to shake off this short-term funk and get back on track.