lovemyaddict

My boyfriend moved out last weekend. He is a recovering heroin addict and while he hasn't relapsed, he has been fearing he might. He moved back to his home town to move into a sober house and start working the program in full force. He's explained he has to do this alone. I understand it I get it but I feel like I'm losing my mind. I miss him so much I can't stand this, especially today. He's said that he may potentially be gone for a year or more and can't make any promises about that because he has to not be in this relationship at all right now so he can focus on himself. He called me this morning to say Merry Christmas and tell me how sad he is without me. After this we aren't supposed to talk for a while. I have no idea when I'll hear from him again. I know him being sober is most important but I hate that he has to be away from me for so long.. a year or more if even then seems impossible. I can understand taking the first few months alone because I know how much work it is but I am so willing to support him, why won't he let me support him after that? I'm trying to focus on myself right now but am finding that completely impossible. I just feel like I can't do this. He is the most important person in my life, he is my family.. Just feeling so lost right now..