I've experienced what your going through not only at Christams but at any time of year. There are normally alcothons going on this time of year, 24 hours worth of mtgs. One after another hang in there I've been sober a while and still have this type of thinking. My wife is gone today doing all kinds of good deeds and I'm putting in a cloths dryer, not feeling to good about it being Christmas and having to do what I dont want to do but if I dont get the dryer in I cant get my cloths dry to get to a mtg. Merry Christmas, your not alone!!!!!!!
Alcohol is a Depressent why would it do anything else, heck even if you were drinking with someone right this minute Id be willing to bet you would still feel alone and depressed, I always did.