Trust.....ah that elusive thing that takes so long to build up and can be destroyed in a heartbeat..... Although my XAH looked and sounded really good last week, I just don't know if I could ever really trust him again. It just hurts too much.
The boys and I talked about their Dad and Christmas, and we decided to go visit him (even my older son!!!) We can't take him out because I am not his sponsor (and have no intention of being) so we are going to take a picnic to eat with him at the half-way house. I think it will be good for my sons to see their father looking and sounding healthy and it will be good for the X to know that we support his sobriety.
I don't know, maybe I am just sending him mixed messages, but I found that I couldn't just ignore him at Christmas when he is doing so well. When he isn't living in my house, and can't inject his drama in my life, it is a lot easier to be supportive. The main slogan I live by anymore is "No guilt, no drama!" NGND !
Here is that hug for you, ((((((((((Ray)))))))))).
Babs