Thank-you very much all. It may me cry! In a healthy way.
For someone who says smoke gets in their eyes may I just say you are very intuitive
I was in desperate need for someone to say something nice to me. I guess I needed a jump start on figuring out what is 'good' about me.
I checked out the CoDA site, I think I will try a meeting.
And that posting in general recovery seems like it will be very helpful. Though it might take me awhile to get the nerve to do it!