I actually can relate to what you are going through. The thing about sobriety is even though we put the drink down it does not mean that life shi* stops. Life continues and for many of us it takes a while for the damage we did while drinking to be repaired. I don't know if this will help but below is a link to my story of recovery. I think you will find some similiarities and I hope that it gives you some hope for the future.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...dms-story.html