hi
and welcome.
i don't have kids. reading the stories on this forum is what really keeps me from doing that with ah. there are many here that do though and hopefully they will be here shortly to support you.
i do want to tell you what you have done TAKES TREMENDOUS COURAGE, courage that many many do not have. never forget that!!! you have chosen to make a better life for yourself and your children. you have chosen to be a great role model for them - that is the very best Christmas gift you could ever give them.
your your children's HERO today and always -stay strong!!! (((hugs))))