I haven't read all the posts as my head hurts to much this morning but like the poster above, I had 2 or so months sober and decided to try moderation, social drinking whatever you want to call it. It didn't work for me, once I drank that first night that was it, the cravings and the mental arguments were back in full force. Abstinence is the only way forward for me, I don't believe I would ever be in a place where I can "socially drink." One drink lead me back right where I was in a matter of a week.