hey paj, sorry your having a rough day. just you being here has helped me greatly. like you said, we can go through this together-just that makes me feel better.
gee, the "if you could just accept me the way i am, be more affectionate" that is the biggest badest guilt trip anyone can put on you if you accept it right? i know that is the one that works with me and seems to get me every time. you not alone. all the same words and thoughts have been expressed to me.
we just have to know like you said, that it is not true. i mean, haven't we tried love and affection, haven't we tried begging, haven't we tried just about everything us codies could come up with to try? -lol.
so, i guess we just have to surrender. hugs to you!!!