So here I am....
got myself an Ativan scrip to help with the withdrwals...just drinking right along with it...gives you kind of a weird high...drove drunk with the kids again...guess all the tears and midnight remorse don't amount to ****....on the verge of prison...job loss...marriage ruin....health breakdown..WTF....I feel good now right I should not be allowed to participate in any innocents life...its just a matter of time....what the f**** is wrong with me....I'm scrared of dying...just put me away or something....I *CAN"T STOP....I'm halfawy thinking of callimg the sheriff on myself