Thinking of you. I remember living with a raging alcoholic, and it was no fun. Everything was so much work! The minute I threw him out, my life opened up and became so much easier. Throwing out somebody is virtually impossible... I spent a huge amount of money to do it, but I was ready to leave myself with the children and the dog and check into a women's shelter. Life was so hard with him in the house... I couldn't cope with basic things. Now, that he's out of my life, people ask me: "How do you cope alone with two small children, a big house, shoveling snow, and a job?" Life is actually much easier without being abused mentally and emotionally. It's amazing the energy you have after the negative sickness is out of your space. Good luck to you... see if you can move out. Take care of yourself and your son. Leave the mortgage to him. Enjoy your new career. Make money for you and your child. Any dime you spend on that man will be wasted.