Good for you! I'm in the boat with you. I actually like drinking - it's the getting drunk, turning into an idiot and then puking that I don't like. I wish I could do moderation. But I know that I can't. I can't beat myself up for every little thing I do wrong. Especially because I'm so vulnerable right now. Instead I celebrate my little successes, such as, "yay, I brushed my teeth! or I did the dishes, or I ate a meal!" I mean alcoholism is such a huge mountain, that I think by taking control of the little things in life will eventually amount to the big one. We just have to get to that place to finally say goodbye to it, like a bad relationship. Like, "I needed you at the time because I couldn't cope, but now I don't need you anymore." Grieve it and try to move forward. Hmm, this is very poetic don't you think? Damn I should take my own advice.