LAST YEAR for Christmas:
*I let XABF back into my life and got hurt
*I supported him and did not aid myself in my own recovery
*I alienated myself from family and friends, especially those with significant others and kids
*I HATED him for everything he did to me and blamed him for my misery
*I stressed myself over how someone could lie to me and choose to be alone with beer than in a house with me
*I was finding porn everywhere when I began to toss out the stuff he left behind
*I found packets upon packets of benadryl
THIS YEAR I'm giving gifts to myself a little earlier. My gifts to myself are:
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*Accepting myself
*Loving myself
*Giving myself time and space when I need it
*Giving myself permission to feel any emotion that comes along
*Not feeling guilty about any feelings I give myself permission to feel
*Reminding myself that tough feelings are temporary and will pass because I have DONE the work, and am a work in progress
*Boundaries I've set that keep me safe
*Keeping people who are hurtful, unworthy of my love and my trust at bay
*Letting go of resentment to those I have let hurt me
*Forgiving myself for letting others hurt me
*My smile
*My warmth
*My love to myself
*My daily affirmations
*My continued growth as a person and recovery of codependency
