Welcome to Sr, I am so glad u found us. I think the house and u keeping a job is terrific especially after such drug abuse. The one thing u didn't mention, is if u don't mind me asking, are u talking any meds? I take a couple and I do alot better with the self abuse, Such as drinking and drugging. It has been about 17 years for me. We often self medicate with alcohol or drugs to deal with depression. Take care of yourself and chat with ya later.....