Hi..just wanna leave a hug for you...
One of the things i've learned this week is to not repeat the same mistake. I did that for a long time and didn't know why. I had to make a choice if i actually was ready to be happy at last. I think that maybe you're getting that chance to be happy, and i can relate to that feeling of not knowing if we can be happy after so much pain. But it's possible. Grab that chance, that turn of events and give yourself a great life, cuz you deserve it.
take good care!