Originally Posted by
readytorecover 
If I do put effort into it, I can stop it from getting out of hand, but why should I have to do that? It seems better to not drink at all. I am an outgoing person, so I will have just as much fun.
Shari
People who have an obsessive/compulsive personality, such as myself, cannot stop with one. People who don't have a drinking problem don't obsess over how much they have drunk. Don't beat yourself up over it, just accept it and move on. The insanity of alcohol is standing between you and your serenity, your peace of mind. You have to make a decision here: Do you want to continue going in circles or do you want to get somewhere? The journey is rugged and uphill (recovery is painful) , but once you get to the top, the view is spectacular. It all begins with you taking the first step.
Peace.