Well, it's hard to think of something to say.
First, I have never had any really bad feelings of addiction, no bad w/d symptoms, no cravings. It just seems hard to find a stopping point when I am "out" on the town, be it with my husband or friends, coworkers, family. I have had blackouts, mostly when I was a teenager. And my husband tells me I get really mean when I drink too much. I don't want to be that way. It's embarassing.
If I do put effort into it, I can stop it from getting out of hand, but why should I have to do that? It seems better to not drink at all. I am an outgoing person, so I will have just as much fun.
So.......Today will be day one, again. I am thinking of looking for an AA meeting, hoping there are non-smoking meetings. It's gonna be hard to walk in that door...........
Shari
