yes, been with her for 11 years so i'm basially married to her.
A big mess. Even went to court and did the property listing routine.
Luckiey there's was children of our own involved.
yes, she did sober up after each seperations, but as always not
until the bottom has falling out. Her being a female made it a bit
difficult and feeds more into the insanity and denial of it all.
I got kick out of my own home...obviousely she lost all of that.
The conseqence she caused..i blame her for...it's her fault,
it's all her fault.
Being codi as i am..i was willing to try again..I figure that
was it. WRONG !!!!. She would get will enough to go out and
do it again. During the sepretions...i would get well enough
to receive it again.lol The thing of it is...I didn't know i was a
codi..I thought I just love someone and was doing the right thing.
Love someone in health and and in sickness. through thick and thin.
i think most people before ever getting to posting on SR was
doing that and beliving like that through all of the living hell.
and it got worst and worst each time.
So..i'm soppost to feel bad about myself for caring and loving someone ?
yes, i'm guilty. I'm guilty of loving someone.
The consequence and wreackage she cuased..i still blame her for,
but it's piontless becuase she dosn't really give a damn.
what???? for her to make an admens on my death bed or write
me a letter when i'm six feet under ??? so she'll have an awakening ?
I think that's still too much for me to expect out of her.
The sign are there and it's simple...she loves her addiction more
than she loves me. it's hard to belive and it's hard to accept.
I'm sorry that you're going through what you're going through.
I hope you find answers.
if there was even a way for me to remove any pain you're going
through I would. I wish it upon no one.