Hey Mandi
Thanks for sharing how you're feeling, there's no right and wrong in this, I know it's an old cliche but it's worth saying - we're not bad people trying to get good, we're sick people trying to get well.
And this -
its the most important thing you could ever do
He's right you know. I don't know if you're an alcoholic. But if you are, you could spend as many years as I did trying to drink like a normie, and you'll still be an alcoholic. Except you'll have a lot of nasty experiences to count too.
Enjoy your meeting. And I wish I was in Glasgow this weekend! (For the football, 'mericans)