With all respect, reading posts about slips and trials with giving alcohol up, to me any how is inspiring. It gives me faith I'm not alone, and friends that can help each other through our problems. I know what you mean; one time I tried giving up and it only took an alcohol advertisment on a bus to inspire me to drink again. But looking back on that experience - I wasn't ready to give up.
I'm ready now. I've looked back on my life and regretted a lot of things. I look back and see glimmers of what is good about myself, something I've been slowly suffocating over these years. I know I'll be OK. But it has to be NOW.