Hi Gohhst , my name is Leigh
I drank for 37 years, and was at times a daily drinker, and a binge drinker .
congrats on your 2 days
i have found that AA saved my life . like you , i was terrified of going, I crept into the room, and sat on the edge of the first chair i came to, and looked at the floor LOL
I was very surprised to find out that there were others exactly like ME! I thought I was unique , and that no one had ever felt like me !
Go to a meeting, you will be welcomed with open arms, and i think you will find great relief in the fellowship of AA
Good Luck
HUGX
Leigh