((((guineapigjude))))
I think the saying goes, "Progress, not perfection"
Maybe you're thinking of the "good" memories, and being a "family". Maybe you didn't give yourself the time to grieve the loss of the relationship.
Sometimes I find myself slipping back into old behaviors, but now I can at least RECOGNIZE that I'm going down the wrong way on a one way street, and get myself turned around pretty quick.
Hugs,