Welcome Sugarplum!! I love that name too. Never feel like you have to apologize, we are all here for the same reasons.
I'm also wishy washy and confused. Just when I think I know the way and I'm on the path in the right direction I get turned around but atleast when I get turned around now I don't end up back at the beginning.
I'm glad you're here!!! Keep posting it helps.
Hugs,
Galnva