I understand where you are at right now. I knew what I needed to do, but yet was scared to finally let go of the life style I had ever known. I was fortunate that I have a good friend who has been sober for 5 years and is active with AA, so I called her and went to my first AA meeting with her and will keep going. It was scary, but you will be surprised how you are welcomed with open arms and although the everyone's story may not be exactly the same as yours there are many similarities that you can relate to. It is a comforting place to be. I love the knew peace and contentment I have found within myself. I wish you all the luck!!
Shiloh