Well to say that you don't have a desire to drink then saying practically in the same sentence that you could pick something up for tonight is pretty contradicting don't you think. Also to say that it hasn't effected your life much but you took the day off from work because of the nausiation is also somewhat contradicting. How much money would you have made if you would've worked your normal shif today?
Drinking has cost you some money and emotions and obviously has made you turn to someone for advice.
All I know is that if you think you are, you probably are.
Not trying to tell you what to do, but if you think drinking hasn't cost you anything, maybe you need to go back and read your own words.