All we can do is keep the faith and hope. There are many ways to live life. When our kids choose ways that seem so hard, and with so little concern for themselves we can't comprehend it. I just want to try and stop making any kind of sense of it.
I want to release my son. He is making a mess of his life, but for today I will try and not think about it. I hope you & Jerry find a way to do the same.