Originally Posted by
LegalLady 
I get what you are saying Music, and to tell you the truth I hope I do get that desparate that I don't care who is there. But between you and me, I just sit at home and drink. Single no kids and not getting in anyone's way. Just the safety net of my four walls, the corner of my couch, the TV, two cats, depression, and plenty of beer and the store walking distance. And A GREAT BIG PITY PARTY IN MY HEAD. And gosh I know I have that. With lots of bitterness and crap. But I have that safety net of being a drunk at home. I see my counselor tonight. Wish me luck
I had a friend who drank that same way. He'd work for a while, buy enough booze to hibernate for a while, and just drink until he ran out, or had to go get more. Trouble is, one day he ran out and couldn't walk to the store, so he drank the rubbing alcohol that was in cabinet. When his daughter found him he was damn near dead. He wouldn't even get up to go to the bathroom. He just sat in his sh*t and kept a bucket to pee in. Great way to live isn't it?
When I came to AA, I was told by a good friend that one day it would get so good, I wouldn't be able to stand it. I make you that same promise. All you have to do is give up, care more about yourself than what others think, and follow some simple directions. But, the choice is yours. Most alcoholics I know are great people, and deserve better than what they're dealing out to themselves. Fear is robbing you of a new and better life.