I get what you are saying Music, and to tell you the truth I hope I do get that desparate that I don't care who is there. But between you and me, I just sit at home and drink. Single no kids and not getting in anyone's way. Just the safety net of my four walls, the corner of my couch, the TV, two cats, depression, and plenty of beer and the store walking distance. And A GREAT BIG PITY PARTY IN MY HEAD. And gosh I know I have that. With lots of bitterness and crap. But I have that safety net of being a drunk at home. I see my counselor tonight. Wish me luck