I drank and drove for years and never had a DUI. Sometimes I use to almost wish I'd get pulled over so I could end the insanity. One DUI and my family, friends and co-workers would have been in an uproar. My drinking days would have ended right there. Instead, it wasn't until I was 48, totally depressed and missing out on what should be a wonderful life that I realized I had to do something NOW!
That was over 3 years ago and have been sober since. However, I know in my mind that I missed out on so many great moments. I try not to dwell on it and instead, enjoy everyday. (Well, almost everyday. Life does tend to have it's ups and downs.)
Good luck. As awful as 3 DUI's are, I think you might look back on it as a blessing in disguise.
jane