Well, Tom, one thing I picked up in group the other night (I'm in intensive outpatient rehab), that I hadn't even thought of before..one of those things where it's like ..*ding* that was simple, but I never thought of it...is that if your drug(s) of choice (mine was/is alcohol) was a person, and that person kept pushing you around, making you do this and do that and all this other stuff that you wouldn't do when you were sober/clean..would you keep inviting them back into your life, your home, or would you tell them "I'm SICK of you pushing me around" ?
So, I don't know if it will help you any, but when I think of drinking now, I think of it as a bully that's going to make me not myself, push me around, and I get ticked at it and refuse to let it in the door.
Keep stickin to it man, I hope you kick them both out for good
