Drained ~ so glad to hear from you ~ we've been thinking about you and I've been keeping you in my prayers.
There's nothing easy about life with an addict or as a codependent. We all understand where you're at. Don't ever feel like we're tired of hearing from you ... thats what we're here for.
Please be kind to yourself. Don't give up. You'll find your way. PM me if you ever need to talk.