Hang in there!
It wasn't ever easy for me, when I wanted to quit. But because I didn't work the steps, stopped going to meeting, thought I could do it myself, I ended up drunk and looking at the pile I've created again.
This time I have had enough. I can choose to work the program, go to meetings, read and write on this web site, and keep a positive attitude, OR I can start drinking and loose my family - who will kick me out perminately this time, loose my job, loose all my money, and wined up dead. Tough choice? It's extreamly tough for me.
No matter how stupid the choice may be, It's something I need to be aware of all the time and never let my guard down.