i too used to love the dark and quiet and now like light and noise. i am 11 days into sobriety so i guess i still have time and the depression and anxiety will go away. the meetings do help....although this week i hope to find one i enjoy going to. and since im in LA it shouldnt be a problem, just time and searching. so just know you arent alone in your fears!! posting on this board has definitely helped me a alot talking to you guys....so thank you all!!!