I feel like I should say something but Im at a loss for what to say. Its weird the pain seems less than before, each break is easier, even though we've had so many more good times.
Then apart of me knows the addict always returns, this isnt over he'll be back, unless he truly heals. If either of us truly heal we will both want to be treated better than what the other treated us. Its sad, the person Ive allowed myself to become. The violence Ive engaged in and even initiated..
Now Babs your words inspire me.
I still get what if feelings, but I have to stay in today. No idea what future holds for either of us or our marriage, but I believe whatever happens -happens