Thanks guys and gals... For some reason I dont feel quite as guilty as I usually do. Perhaps it is because I didnt get as out of control as usual? Or maybe it is because it motivates me even more to not drink... I am lucky I didnt get as bad as usual, because it isnt hard. I still blacked out though, and so did my friend. It is NOT good. Im so glad I am here and coming back even after messing up. I know I am on the right road anyway...