(( Selah )) Addicts can manipulate by not calling as much as by calling. Ugh.
By saying I'll just keep keeping on, you are affirming your courage to change and I see your recovery shining. Initially changing can be hard, but I promise as you keep trying, it does get easier.
Feeling torn between loving him and letting go is normal at first. I do understand it's tough as you say. I found going to meetings helped me especially during rough spots.
Take care and know we are always here for you.
