Oh well, still going.
Just had to cancel meeting an old friend tonight. Last week I bumped into a great budddy of mine who I had lost touch with for nearly 10 years ago We arranged to have bite to eat tonight to catch up.
Thing is I have been feeling a really strong desire to drink today. I dont feel in danger but I dont trust myself to go out. I obviously havent told him that since we last hung out I became an alcoholic (even though when we last knew each other I was under a `supervision order` at university for getting drunk and throwing a barbeque off the roof of a 30 story building in downtown Toronto so I guess it wouldnt come as too much of a surprise...
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Anyway, I have had to cancel which stinks. I basically cant trust myself to trust myself.
Maybe further into my recovery I can start socialisin properly again.
Just wanted to whinge.
Oct