I am in the same boat as you today. We must remember why we can't be with them. Love has nothing to do with it. Be strong girl. I agree that our minds play tricks and remind us of the good times. thats why we stay so long. It helps me to read my earlier posts and realize that nothing has changed. I think when they apologize and make promises they really mean it. they don't want to lose everything, yet they don't want to quit quite yet either. If they do manage to quit, they question always remains..for how long?? It really help to read posts from women who had thier husbands back for a period of time, then BAM back comes the addiction. You deserve a better life.