Layala..I'm sorry
my gf use to call me at worked and tell me she wants to kill herself.
My heart drop and I bascailly went crazy.
I asked everyone here on SR to pray for , and many people did.
being seperate for over six months.
I was bascially trying to move on with my life after 2 solid years of
being there for her, picking up the piece for her, enabling her.
and nothing I did stopped her from drinking and using and she was a
bit mean about it too. I sat home many nights worrying and waiting
for her to come home, on christmas on new years, on birthdays
you name it ..i sat home alone.
Did I love her ? of couse i did..
well..she would call me everyday for a couple of weeks threaten to
kill herself. again and again.
After a week of it....it still bother me ,but not as much.
Then i would find her in the her car passed out, after I came from a date.
or sometimes I fine her in my new apartment passed out becuase she had
broken in. She delivbratly dystroyed all of the relationship with other women
i was dating. She kicked me out of my own home...that's why I had to
get my own apt. i told the judge that she would loose the town house
in 3-4 months...but no one would listen to me..
well she had nowhere to go. so I took her in again.
there was more wreackage even after that..it got worst and worst.
She would cried and tell me to promise her that i would never leave
her becuase she bad at that time. i thought she was really sincere.
i ended up sleeping in my car becuase i became so disfuntional, after a year.
A friend had to take me in so I can try to start a new life.
i did well for a little while..then she would call me again after
some more wreakage and more chaos and of course she say
she wants to dy and kill herself
I figure it was her bottom and we should give it a try..
She would say the samething ..please don't ever leave her
and she was sorry for what she has done. I thought she was
sincere and really means it.
Just a couple of weeks ago ..she left me stranded again.lol
i guess she's well, now..
I was there for her, i did love her...and this is the thanks I get.
Somehow i think we're not on the same page or living by the rules.
I guess we can't see eye to eye.lol
Will damn it...i was dating a normie.
like denny said..is this the life you want for you ??.becuase I freanken old now.
Last edited by SaTiT; 10-02-2007 at 08:21 AM.