hi luv
When am I going to stop letting myself get my hopes up over this?? My heart cannot take it anymore.[/QUOTE]
you will when you are sick and tired of being sick and tired and feeling that way-plain and simple. when it is too much for YOU, then you will make the changes you need to make for yourself. we codies have to hit our bottoms too.
i had to learn that my happiness and quality of life does not depend on another persons actions, it depends on me and my actions.
hope this helps hon. take care